Love is….

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It’s Matt here – and this Valentine’s Day has got me thinking about love.
I recently heard the amazing actress Taraji P. Henson define love.  (Sidenote: It was in the context of her new movie “Best of Enemies” which is based on a true story of race and redemption here in Durham, NC in the late 60’s.  The movie comes out April 5th.)  She said, “love is the search for understanding”.  I heard that while driving alone in my car and out loud I said, “Wow!”.  It hit me hard, because it is the essence of what we talk about so much in our therapy rooms.
Love is searching to understand your person – not necessarily agreeing with them, or seeing things exactly the same way.  But to love them is to seek to understand them.  When we understand someone, we can accept them for who they truly are. Brene Brown says, “it’s hard to hate someone up close”.  I think this is a related idea.  When we feel understood, we feel loved.  It may sound simple, but it’s so so true.   And as I reflected, I realized this is true for all our relationships.
Think about it – with your partner, parent, child, friend, sibling, co-worker – would it feel like you were showing them love if you tried to sincerely understand them?  Would you feel loved if they sought to fully understand you?  So here’s an invitation:  in the course of your next conversation with someone you love, make an intentional effort to seek to understand them.  Not to fix them, or agree with them, or change them – just seek to understand them.  See if your bond deepens, and watch the love flow between you both.
Wishing you all a deeper sense of connection, understanding, and love on Valentines Day and beyond! – Matt

 

Matt Kreiner, MSW, LCSWA
Lead Associate & Clinical Manager

Anxiety in Children

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Quick Hits:

  • Anxiety is our mind and body responding to perceived threat.
  • Think of anxiety in three levels: green, yellow, and red – we want to stay out of the red zone where rational responses do not live.
  • The main cause of anxiety is NOT YOU!
  • Cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) is the gold standard of anxiety treatments and works for more than 80% of people.
  • It’s time to ask for help if relationships or productivity are being affected, or if someone is missing valuable life experiences as a result of their anxiety.
  • See below for an anxiety FAQ list.

Parts of this post are written to the parent of an anxious child, however the information is consistent for adults with anxiety as well.

Does any of this sound familiar?  Sweaty palms, heart racing, flushed skin, tantrums, black and white thinking, decisions we regret – these and so many more are common symptoms of anxiety.

Before we tackle the problem of anxiety I think it is helpful to define it.  While anxiety can take many different shapes, I like to think of it like this:

Anxiety is our response to perceived threat.

We all perceive threats differently.  What is threatening, or anxiety provoking, to someone else may not even register on your anxiety meter.  One child may be terrified when being dropped off at school while another one can’t wait to get there.  Regardless of the details of the perceived threat, we can all relate to feeling anxious at one time or another.  Anxiety is a universally human experience.

It is the way we think about these perceived threats that determines how we deal with our anxiety.  It can be helpful to think of your anxiety level in 3 zones – green, yellow, and red.

Green zone – you’re feeling good.  Even if you are aware of a perceived threat, you feel in control and ready to handle it in a healthy way.

Yellow zone – you’re ok, but worried.  You are aware of a perceived threat, but not sure you can deal with what is coming.  This is the time to fall back and rely on your anxiety management skills.

Red zone – you are not feeling good.  Your anxiety level has reached a point where rational thinking and using skills is no longer an option.  Black and white thinking has taken over.  From here we need to find a way to safely ride out the storm until we’re back in the yellow zone and we can use our skills.

The bad news: Anxiety is a tricky opponent.  It affects different people in different ways.  We don’t know everything there is to know about it yet, but we do know certain things.

The good news:  One of the most important things we know is that the main cause of anxiety is NOT YOU!  Let me say this again – you are not the cause of your child’s (or your own) anxiety.  It is not your fault.

We do know that certain factors make it more likely for a child to experience issues dealing with anxiety.  There are some genetic indicators, and there are some environmental indicators that studies show may increase a person’s likelihood of experiencing issues, but there is no reliably predictable cause.  So, if you have been beating yourself up, thinking you caused the issues you are dealing with, you can stop that right now.

More good news: we know how to fix it!  We have developed and studied a technique that is effective for over 80% of people dealing with issues related to anxiety!   It’s called cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT).  Basically, CBT helps us take control of our thoughts and feelings before we act in ways we regret.  The basic idea is that thoughts lead to emotions and emotions lead to actions.  We can practice and develop skills that allow us to interrupt our natural thoughts and/or emotions so they don’t lead us to actions that we regret.

Here’s an example.  A child who has never practiced CBT skills may be anxious about being dropped off at school.  They may have thoughts about being left alone, getting hurt, their parents getting hurt and not coming back to get them, or any other perceived threat.  These thoughts lead to negative emotions like fear.  Their body starts to react by increasing the heart-rate and responding to the perceived threat.  Black and white thinking takes over.  They are in the red zone and rational thought cannot occur.  The action they take is to scream, cry, throw a tantrum, and do whatever it takes to protect themselves from the threat – at this point it’s essentially a fight, flight, or freeze response.

The same child, after practicing and developing CBT skills, is able to recognize when they are in the yellow zone.  They recognize this feeling as a trigger to fall back on and use their skills.  Their skills help them think about what is most likely to happen and that they are actually very safe at school.  They even enjoy the time with their friends and teachers when they’re not in the red zone.  Using their skills, they get themselves back to the green zone and do not behave in a way that they regret.

This is a very simple way of looking at CBT, but the principles are sound.  CBT is the gold standard in behavior modification and anxiety spectrum issues.  Medications can help, but many folks can realize wonderful results without them if they take the time to develop and practice their skills.  And the best part is, the skills stay with us for a lifetime.

CBT focuses on realistic thinking skills to improve thoughts, awareness and relaxation skills to improve our emotional responses, and controlled exposure to triggering events to improve behaviors.

When should I reach out for help?
A licensed clinician can help you cultivate CBT skills in a matter of weeks.  It is a great idea to reach out for help if you or your child:

  • Have noticed a decrease in effectiveness, performance, or productivity at school or work as a result of anxiety
  • Have noticed that your relationships are being negatively impacted by the symptoms and behaviors of anxiety
  • Are missing out on meaningful life experiences as a result of anxiety.

There are more FAQs below, but I’d like to leave you with a quick summary.

It is very likely that you did not cause the anxiety that you or your child are experiencing.  It is also very likely that you can “fix” it!  You can learn and develop the skills to overcome the anxiety that is getting in the way of you living your fullest life.  If you are frustrated with how things have been going, reach out to a licensed clinician and ask about a CBT plan.  You can do this!  I suspect you will find that the experience is less scary, less difficult, more effective and more common than you think.  By practicing CBT skills, most children and adults alike come to know they are much braver and more capable than they think they are.

All the best to you as you make your progress,

Matt

 

Frequently Asked Questions about Anxiety:

How long does it take?
Of course the details vary, but most folks see progress in 4-6 weeks and consider their first round of work complete in 10-15 weeks.  At that point, they are able to practice the skills they’ve learned in their day to day life.  Some folks come back to their clinician for check-ups periodically or continue regular work when they uncover new behaviors they’d like to improve.

When is it fixed?
A person might consider the problem “fixed” when their symptoms decrease to a tolerable or non-existent level.  However, the skills learned in CBT are meant to be used throughout our lives.  If they are neglected and forgotten, the problems are likely to return.

What if my child is gifted?
There is some correlation between intellectual aptitude and anxiety issues.  CBT is very effective with folks in these situations.

What if the child is resistant?
This is very common.  Whether it’s the stigma associated with seeking help or the fact that talking about anxiety can increase a person’s anxiety – some folks are hesitant to working with a counselor.  The truth is that no one can make progress without effort.  So, they need to want to make improvements in order to do the necessary work to see results.  However, there are techniques that help people stay in touch with their motivation and keep them coming back.  Rewards and reinforcement can also be used at age-appropriate levels.

What about repetitive behaviors?
This is another sign that it is time to talk with a licensed clinician.  Repetitive behaviors can be signs of other issues.  They can also be improved by similar strategies – including building CBT skills and tapping into a person’s true motivation.  The earlier one seeks treatment for these issues, the better.

What about siblings?
All of us are part of family systems to one degree or another.  So none of our behaviors exist in isolation.  Siblings can play a huge role in making symptoms better or worse.  One of the many wonderful things about CBT skills is that they can benefit the entire family.  If there is a dynamic with your child’s sibling(s) that is impacting their progress, you definitely want to bring that to the attention of your counselor.

How do I know what’s normal?
If you suspect that your child’s behavior may be outside of normal/typical range, you should seek the opinion of a licensed professional – this could be a counselor, pediatrician, or social worker.  They will be able to help you decide what your next steps should be.

What do I do about test anxiety?
This is one of the most common triggers for anxiety in children.  It also typically responds very well to treatment.  Building CBT skills around reality checking, pre-test routines, and positive self-talk typically go a long way to relieving these symptoms.

Could it be manipulation instead of anxiety?
If, for example, throwing a tantrum gets the child what they want, then it is possible they have learned to manipulate their environment by using behaviors that are similar to those experiencing anxiety.  It is important to be honest and consistent about the child’s behavior and your responses in order to know the truth about what is happening.  A licensed clinician will be able to help you to know what to look for and what your next steps should be.  Typically if the behavior becomes dangerous or is limiting their productivity or relationships, then it is more than manipulation.  Either way, your clinician will be able to help you practice strategies for improvement.

To schedule an appointment with Matt, please call the office at (919) 382-0288 or Matt’s direct line is (919) 794-5490, or email at matt@bullcitypsychotherapy.com.

The First Question to Ask

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What brought you to this place? It may or may not be the first question that your therapist will ask you, but it is a revealing question that you might ask yourself. What brought you to the place of being ready to begin working on your sex addiction? What brought you to the place of being ready to schedule that appointment, whereas in the past something always held you back or got in the way? Was it getting caught, or was it totaling up the money you have spent on porn or prostitutes? Was it an ultimatum from your partner, or was it the fatigue you have felt from hours of acting out?  Was it the fear that this addiction would be your ultimate undoing, or was it the fear that you might lose your children’s respect? My goal is not to shame you, but to help you see that the answer to that question can be a helpful tool.

What brought you to this place? Whatever brought you here—to this critical moment in your life—can also be empowering and encouraging. When you are in a moment of weakness and you are not sure if you want to continue working on your recovery, remember what brought you here. Sobriety is not just about giving up something, but also about gaining something. The impetus that gave you the courage and determination to begin the journey can also propel you forward toward a better life.

What brought you to this place? Sex addiction is ultimately an intimacy disorder. Perhaps in your childhood, your caregivers were not so adept at being there for you, or even worse, were abusive. You did not connect with them in a healthy way, and now you struggle to form the attachments with others that you need. A fear of intimacy permeates your life. You use sexual activity or pornography as substitutes for healthy relationships. Your “drug of choice” becomes a brain-numbing replacement. As Robert Weiss, the sex addiction expert writes, “Sex addicts are looking for controllable sources of getting themselves fed emotionally.” Perhaps you struggle with engaging in the kind of transparency, risk, and vulnerability that lead to secure attachments in your relationships.

What brought you to this place? Whatever your answer to that question may be, let it be the springboard to putting every ounce of your determination into moving forward. Let it impel you to do whatever it takes to find a life that is nurturing, healthy, and whole.  You cannot do everything at once. Just take the first step. Give us a call. Any one of us at Bull City Psychotherapy would be honored to work with you as we examine that crucial question together.

If you would like to schedule an appointment with Tim, please call him at 919-533-7907. Or you can e-mail him at tim@bullcitypsychotherapy.com.

Ambiguous Grief and the New Year: How Can We Feel Optimistic About Starting a New Year When We Feel Ambiguous Grief?

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For many, the holidays and the start of a new year can be a joyous time. For others, the start of a new year can be a reminder of what we have lost or what we have never had.

For those of us who feel ambiguous grief during the holidays, here are some tips you can incorporate into your day that will truly transform how to perceive your life. For starters, it is so important that we first identify and even write down our blessings or parts of our life that we feel much gratitude for. I like identifying at least three things I feel grateful for as I am settling in to practice mindfulness meditation. I do this in a very self aware and intentional manner, with full attention and imagery in my mind for what or who I am grateful for. Other people like to keep a daily gratitude journal. This is also extremely helpful. The process of writing down what we are grateful for really solidifies the authenticity of feeling grateful for something specific. And others like to fill a jar or box with gratitudes and periodically read them for an emotional boost and reality check when we are feeling down.

I also think it is critical that we allow time and space to actually feel the feelings of ambiguous grief that we may not want to feel. If we have lost someone who is still living, or we are mourning something we never had, such as a loving relationship with a parent, then we need to honor our feelings and allow them to be felt, rather than pushing them away or numbing out with addictions or other distracting behaviors.

For me, I use certain time during my mindfulness practice to be devoted to feeling ALL of the feelings I need to feel, especially the ones that I don’t want to feel. When I do this, my feelings of ambiguous grief do not torment me as much in my daily life at work or with family. I give myself the gift of feeling my true feelings without judgment. There are many other ways you might find work for you to feel your true feelings; possibly with a trusted friend, or a counselor, journal writing, etc.; these are all great, just find what works best for you.

In the end, just because a new year is starting does not mean our feelings of ambiguous grief are simply going to disappear. Grief is a feeling that needs to be honored, processed, and felt. There is no time frame for grief. Grief can also turn into complicated grief or depression, so if you are stuck, then please seek professional help. If you are, however, honoring your true feelings and working through the ambiguous grief, then you are not stuck, you are successfully feeling the hard work of processing grief.

Ambiguous grief may come and go, especially if the person your mourn is still alive, and you see him or her. Anytime we experience loss or negative feelings, our underlying feelings of ambiguous grief can be triggered, and if this happens it is perfectly normal. When you notice you are triggered, practice the tools that work for you, such as creating a gratitude list or calling a trusted friend to share.

Dr. Sophia Caudle relationship therapist

If you are experiencing ambiguous grief and you would like to schedule an individual intensive with Dr. Caudle, please email her at Sophia@bullcitypsychotherapy.com.

Ambiguous grief intensives focus on identifying, processing, and moving through grief with experiential work and research based therapies.

Child Pornography

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Do you view or have urges to view pornography featuring children or teens? Do you experience shame or isolation related to these urges or behaviors? Do you worry that you may be tempted to commit a sexual act against a child or teen? If you are considering seeking treatment, you may find yourself asking some of the following questions:

Why do I do this?

Traditionally, compulsion to consume pornographic images featuring children and teens, and pedophilia in general, has been viewed as a moral failing for which the only remedy is long-term incarceration and/or community ostracism. This approach assumes that the individual chooses to access the content and does not wish to stop. We now know that this perspective is not only inaccurate, but also dangerous in that it offers no hope for those who hope to avoid offending. Most convicted child pornography offenders report they WANTED to stop the behavior, but felt powerless against their compulsions. The pain associated with this powerlessness is immense and sometimes deadly. In fact, research shows that people who struggle with these unwanted urges die by suicide at significantly higher rates than the general population.

Newer research has identified a number of factors that increase the likelihood that an individual will develop a sexual attraction to children or a compulsion to view child pornography. These factors include experiencing sexual abuse as a child, neurological or developmental disorders, learning disabilities, poor problem-solving skills, and even biological conditions such as brain tumors. Some individuals become addicted to adult pornography and are gradually introduced to sexualized images of children. In these instances, child pornography is an escalation of pornography addiction, in part because of the taboo against it.

While we do not currently have a thorough understanding of why these compulsions develop, researchers are continually revealing information to assist mental health providers and sufferers with reducing risk of harm and improving quality of life. Regardless of the causes of one’s sexual attraction to children and teens, it is the responsibility of the individual to seek treatment in order to reduce risks to themselves and their community.  

Will treatment work? Am I doomed to commit and act of sexual violence against a child or teen?

There is a pervasive myth in American culture that pedophiles and consumers of child pornography do not benefit from treatment. Current research supports the notion that treatment can help sufferers reduce their unwanted behaviors and urges as well as improve their mental well-being.

Not everyone who is attracted to children becomes a sex offender. In fact, there are vast online and real-life communities of individuals who choose to tackle their sexual attraction to children through treatment and support structures, versus risk harming a child. To learn more about these communities and to read personal stories about recovery, visit https://www.virped.org/

Is it safe for me to talk to a therapist about this?

The fear of being judged or reported to the authorities keeps many sufferers from seeking the treatment they need. While laws vary from state to state, in North Carolina, psychotherapists are not mandated to report clients who disclose viewing of child pornography. In fact, our professional licenses require us to maintain the privacy and confidentiality of our clients, with the following exceptions:

  • You report that you intend to do harm to yourself or someone else.
  • You provide written and informed (meaning you know exactly what information will be disclosed, to whom, and for what purpose) to release information.

If you seek treatment outside of North Carolina, take the time to familiarize yourself with the legal statutes surrounding mandated reporting by mental health professionals. Alternatively, you can always contact a local provider directly to ask about mandated reporting requirements before disclosing any specific information.

What will treatment look like?

Treatment typically involves reducing risk factors including stress, social isolation, and substance abuse, as well as developing healthy outlets for intense emotions. You may spend time in treatment addressing traumatic experiences in your past or exploring unhelpful patterns in thoughts and behaviors. Your therapist may refer you to a medical provider to explore pharmacological interventions (drugs to reduce symptoms of PTSD, OCD, or other contributing conditions or to reduce intensity of sexual urges).

What do I do next?

If you live in or near the Durham NC area, Bull City Psychotherapy offers services for individuals who have not committed “hands-on” offenses against children but are seeking help to stop viewing child pornography.

At Bull City Psychotherapy, we specialize in the treatment of sexual disorders, including pedophilia (for non-offenders) and sex or pornography addiction. We understand that seeking treatment takes courage and we strive to provide our clients with the respectful and compassionate treatment they deserve.

Lara Markovits Therapist

To schedule an appointment with Lara, please call the office at (919) 382-0288 or her direct line at (919) 884-7836, or email at Lara@bullcitypsychotherapy.com.

Lara is a Licensed Clinical Social Worker (LCSW) specializing in working with clients who struggle with unwanted behaviors and compulsions, including pornography and/or sex addiction, pedophilia, and self-harm. Lara is also trained and experienced in trauma work. Lara’s approach is heavily influenced by her training in Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT), which teaches clients how to fully experience their emotions and manage behaviors through coping skills.

Pesto Shrimp and Pesto Fettuccine Recipe

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The holiday season is among us, so here is a delicious and healthy recipe to share with your family and friends! Find more nutritious recipes from our nutritionist, Kim Shackelford, in her 90 Day Meal Plan Ebook

Ingredients:
2 dozen sustainably harvested wild shrimp
4 zucchini or yellow squash
Sea salt and black pepper (to taste)
Pesto:
3/4 cup Macadamia nuts
1 bunch cilantro
3 clove garlic
1/2 cup extra virgin olive oil
Sea salt and black pepper

Directions:
1. Make the pesto first.
Combine the Macadamia nuts, cilantro, garlic, extra virgin olive oil, sea salt and pepper in a food processor and blend until smooth.

2. Peel the shrimp. Place in a steamer basket in a large saucepan and boil and inch of water. While the water is heating run a julienne peeler along the side of each zucchini (or use zucchini noodler). Steam the zucchini for about 3 to 5 min. and set aside.

3. Steam the shrimp for 3 to 5 min. until pink all the way through.

4. Place the steamed zucchini in a mixing bowl with the pesto and toss until covered. Add and subtract based on the consistency that you want!  Top the noodles with shrimp and serve.

Kim is a Nutritional Therapy Practitioner, Certified GAPS and Restorative Wellness Practitioner. She develops bio individual nutrition and supplementation protocols to support optimal health, weight loss and deficiencies that create symptoms, imbalances, and disease.  She utilizes a natural foundational approach to rebuilding health, which includes high-performance foods and resources to fuel a sustainable shift in your life for permanent results.

For a more comprehensive view of her work, visit: www.kimshackleford.com

If you would like to schedule an appointment with Kim, please call her cell phone at 919-427-5946 or Bull City Psychotherapy at 919-382-0288. Or you can e-mail her at kim@bullcitypsychotherapy.com

Kim Shackleford Nutritionist with Bull City Psychotherapy

Are you wasting half your joy?

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Quick hits

  • The anticipation can be almost as great as the thing itself
  • You are missing out on joy and pleasure if you do not appreciate and reflect on things
  • We become wired to overlook the positives in our lives.  Fight this.
  • Here are 3 things you should do to enjoy your life more today. 

Here’s the thing – we’re wasting so much pleasure.  Most of us grind through our weeks and find a couple of highlights to enjoy.  Some quality time with someone we love, a cheat meal, etc.  Whatever those moments of happiness are, we usually confine them to the moments themselves – and this, dear reader, is the heartbreaking part:  we’re leaving 60% of our pleasure on the table. 

For the sake of this conversation let’s agree on the following math:  30% of our pleasure comes from anticipation, 40% comes from the event itself, and 30% of our pleasure comes from reflection, otherwise known as the back 30. 

Anticipation

Before I focus on the main point of this post (the back 30) I want to focus on anticipation.  There have been many studies that indicate anticipation can be almost as pleasurable as the thing itself.  I like this article for describing the phenomenon.

The main idea here is that if you intentionally look forward to something, for example a vacation, you can deepen the richness of the experience by reading up on the location, watching movies that feature the location, making a playlist to go with the trip, planning your outfits, planning your meals, etc.  Looking forward to the trip can be almost as fun as experiencing it all. 

The back 30%: Active Reflection

So, you spent all this time training for your 5k.  You researched a training plan, bought some running gear, picked a race, trained like crazy, and crushed it!  What an experience!  The training was liberating.  You did things you weren’t sure you could do.  You pushed through pain.  The energy on race day was unlike anything you’ve been a part of before.  The pride immediately after was special. 

Then what?  Did you let the experience die there?  Did you immediately start planning the next one? If so, you left 30% of your joy on the table. 

You accomplished something wonderful!  Take a little bit of time to acknowledge that!  Think about a way that’s meaningful to you and soak up that back 30! Maybe it’s a great steak dinner with dessert.  Maybe it’s a framed case for your certificate and medal.  Maybe it’s a thank you note to your partner for watching the kids all those hours you were out slogging through training runs.  Whatever it is –this reflective activity will deepen the richness of your experience and help you tap in to that back 30% of joy to be had. 

Here are some more ideas and suggestions:

A Shutterfly/memory book to finally organize those pictures from that great vacation

A thank you note to a friend/family member/parent who helped you with that favor – tell them what it really meant to you and what it allowed you to accomplish.

A new portfolio, brief case, or outfit in honor of that new job you got last year.

If you’re not sure where to start, make an “Accomplishments in the Last Year” list.  Our weekly routines wire us to forget all the great things we’ve done so we can move on to whatever is next on the list.  Take a break.  Take a breath.  Intentionally reflect on how great you are and how much pleasure you are forbidding yourself to experience by moving on so quickly. 

This week

Pick 1 thing from your past and brainstorm how to tap into the back 30% of joy you left sitting on the table.

Pick 1 thing you did today that you did not fully relish.  What can you do right now to get the most out of that experience?

Pick 1 thing you’ll do this week.  What is something you will intentionally do to make sure you don’t waste the back 30?

Take stock of how rich these experiences become and how your pleasure deepens as you tap in to this reflective gratitude.  I’m going to go reward myself for writing such a phenomenal blog post. 

All the best as you make your progress,
Matt

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Acupuncture For Weight Loss

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We understand that losing weight is a struggle that can be a long and frustrating process. Bull City Psychotherapy can help you to achieve your weight loss goals with acupuncture and Chinese herbs.

First, we have a specific technique designed to relieve your stress, help you safely shed unwanted pounds, improve your physique, enhance metabolism, and excrete unnecessary moisture from the body.

According to Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM), most overweight is related to unbalanced metabolism, caused by malfunctioning of the spleen and liver systems.

In five element theory in TCM, the spleen is for the proper functioning of the digestive system, deficiency of the spleen Qi will have symptoms such as fatigue, slow metabolism, water retention, loose stool and feeling of heaviness. Many people with fat on belly are all for this reason. Use acupuncture or moxibustion to stimulate the acupoints along the stomach meridian and spleen meridian, to improve the function of spleen and stomach and to promote metabolism and reduce abdominal fat.

The liver’s job is to keep the flow of organ’s Qi and blood running smoothly. Stagnation of the liver Qi will have emotion problems, make the function of the whole digestive system poorly and can be some of the triggers to lead to cravings and overeating. By stimulating the acupoints of the liver meridian, make the flow of qi and blood smoothly, and the effect of detoxification and detoxification is achieved.

Ear acupoints are specific points of diagnosis and treatment on the external ear, and corresponding to the internal organs of the human body. We can also use ear acupressure to maintain the stimulation of the therapeutic effects between your visits.

And finally, our customized herb formulas enhance your organ functions and improve overall health, helping you look and feel your best.

Dr. Geng Wu, with a Diploma of Oriental Medicine (NCCAOM), is licensed by the state to practice in North Carolina. M.D. (China). Dr. Wu graduated from Beijing University of the Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM), the best six-year full-time TCM program in China. She practiced and taught as a chief doctor in the affiliated hospital of Beijing University of TCM. As a counselor and instructor, Dr. Wu practiced and taught TCM for nearly 16 years in Japan.  Providing treatment and relief for specialties such as, pain management, sport injuries, GYN diseases, infertility, menopause symptoms and problems, weight loss, auto-immune and endocrine system disorders, stroke rehabilitation, hypertension, gastrointestinal disorders, low energy, fatigue, respiratory diseases, allergies, neurological and stress-related disorders, insomnia, addictions and skin problems

Dr. Wu published more than 50 professional articles. She is a member of China Association of Acupuncture and Moxibustion, and a member of the Chinese Medical Association.

If you would like to schedule an appointment with Geng, please call her at Bull City Psychotherapy at 919-382-0288, or you can e-mail her at geng@bullcitypsychotherapy.com

How Can We Feel Thankful if We Are Experiencing Ambiguous Grief?

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Thanksgiving is a holiday where we are reminded to count our blessings and be thankful. However, for many of us it is a reminder of who we have lost and what we do not have. If we have lost a loved one who is still living, and we feel grief or sadness still, then we are possibly experiencing ambiguous grief. Ambiguous Grief is the feeling experienced when we lose a loved one who is still alive. This can be due to divorce, diagnosis, disclosure of traumatic information, or change of a relationship.

How can we feel thankful if someone we love is no longer in our lives, but still living, and we miss them terribly? How can we feel thankful if our loved one has a mind altering diagnosis, such as Dimentia or Alzheimer’s, and they are not the same person we used to love? How can we feel thankful if we recently discovered that our life partner has spent most of the retirement savings, in an investment that he/she never discussed with us? These are just a few examples of how ambiguous grief can present in our lives. And expanding upon the original definition, ambiguous grief also applies to the awareness of what we never had, yet we knew we needed, such as loving, healthy, or safe childhood.

Yes, it is very painful to experience loss, regardless of the cause. However, after a loved one passes, we do not hope they will return, because rationally we know that they will not, and with ambiguous grief, during the holidays especially, we might still hope that our living loved one might return to our former relationship.

How can we move through ambiguous grief and still feel thankful during this holiday season? First, it is so very critical to be mindful and stay in the present moment; meaning make efforts to keep your focus on this day, rather than the days of the past. This takes practice, but if you practice Mindfulness Meditation, your mind can learn the practice of staying in the present rather than looking backwards, or being preoccupied with preparing for the future. Staying in the present moment can help us appreciate what we DO have. Notice the small things that the present moment can offer you, such as, food to eat. How does each morsel and bite taste in your mouth? Next, notice and appreciate the people you are sharing your time with, whether they are family, friends, strangers, or a ‘chosen family’. Notice them for who they ARE. Appreciate them for their uniqueness, and most importantly, appreciate them for sharing their time with YOU. Try to appreciate your loved ones as they are, and try not to make assumptions about who you think they are based on your ambiguous grief. Finally, be thankful for YOURSELF. You are the most important person in your own life, and as such, you can be thankful for simply, being.  Try writing a gratitude list for what you notice and appreciate in your present moment awareness.

However, keeping your mind in the present also means acknowledging any ambiguous grief that you may be feeling, and allowing the feeling to be felt. This is so important, because ambiguous grief needs to be felt in order for us to move through it. Notice I said ambiguous grief needs to be felt, not obsessed about. There is a difference between feeling and thinking. A feeling is something that we can feel inside our bodies. If we start engaging the brain and think about what we are feeling, then that feeling can turn into anxiety, and then our thinking evolves into obsessing and ruminating. When this happens we are not staying in the present moment. It is important to find a safe way to feel your ambiguous grief. You can plan this in many ways, such as with a friend, with a sponsor, with a counselor, in a support group, or by writing in a journal, during meditation, or by creating a personal ritual that represents you moving through your ambiguous grief.

So, yes we can feel thankful even if we are feeling ambiguous grief. In short, we can do this by focusing on the present moment and noticing the small gifts we have, even while acknowledging the grief we may still feel.

Thanksgiving Ambiguous Grief Disappointment Sophia Caudle Bull City Psychotherapy

Juicy Organic Meatballs Recipe

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The holidays are upon us, which means time for entertaining and gatherings with family, friends, coworkers, and loved ones. If you are looking for a delicious and healthy appetizer or entree, try these organic meatballs. Pair them with whole-wheat pasta for a meal, or serve alone for a healthy snack.

Juicy Organic Meatballs

Ingredients:
Meatballs:
½ cup homemade grass fed chicken bone broth
4 oz. grated organic Parmigiano-Reggiano plus a little for serving
1 ½ large onions, minced
1 cup fresh parsley, minced
4 tsp. dried oregano
8 garlic cloves, minced
2 tsp. ground fennel seed
4 large egg yolks
1 ½ lbs. ground pastured pork
1 ½ lbs. grass fed beef 85%
4 tbs. ghee or raw butter, melted
4 tbsp. sea salt
Freshly ground black pepper
2 tbsp. fresh basil chopped
¼ cup gluten free panko
¼ cup grass fed whole buttermilk (optional)

Tomato Sauce:
½ cup organic extra virgin olive oil
1 onion, chopped
3 cloves garlic, minced
1 stalk celery, chopped
2 carrots, minced
Sea salt
Freshly ground pepper (to taste)
2 cans (32 oz. each) organic crushed tomatoes
6 basil leaves
2 dried bay leaves
4 tbsp. raw butter 

Directions:
Meatballs
1. In a bowl combine gluten free panko with buttermilk tossing to coat until completely moist.
2. Add onion, garlic, Parmigiano-Reggiano, oregano, basil, fennel, parsley, sea salt, pepper egg yolks add to bread mixture.
3. Combine pastured pork and grass fed beef together then add all the other mixture in a processor or mixer until completely blended.
4. Pour the cooled raw butter over the mixture.
5. Preheat broiler and set oven rack in mid position. Line a rimmed baking sheet with Parchment paper. Form the meatball mixture into even 2 inch balls and arrange on baking sheet. Broil meatballs until browned on top about 7 min. depending on broiler strength.
6. Heat tomato sauce in a medium pot until simmering and add in meatballs. Simmer until meatballs are cooked through about 10 min.

Tomato Sauce
7. In a large sauté pot over medium heat add onion, garlic and sauté until translucent.
8. Add celery and carrots, sea salt and pepper. Sauté until the vegetables are soft, about 5 min.
9. Add tomatoes, basil, bay leaves and simmer for 1 hour until thick. Remove the bay leaves. Add raw butter 1 tbsp. at a time depending on acidity.

Kim is a Nutritional Therapy Practitioner, Certified GAPS and Restorative Wellness Practitioner. She develops bio individual nutrition and supplementation protocols to support optimal health, weight loss and deficiencies that create symptoms, imbalances, and disease.  She utilizes a natural foundational approach to rebuilding health, which includes high-performance foods and resources to fuel a sustainable shift in your life for permanent results.

For a more comprehensive view of her work:

www.kimshackleford.com

If you would like to schedule an appointment with Kim, please call her cell phone at 919-427-5946 or Bull City Psychotherapy at 919-382-0288. Or you can e-mail her at kim@bullcitypsychotherapy.com